One 18 year old's plight to put an end to modish ennui, apathy and emotional cycles that destroy her.
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Food Attitude Body
Day 1 of Ripped Round 2
So I had to stop for a while. I had training and school and whatever excuses and now its October and I’m leaving for Paris in January and I want to look good and feel good and start my life over.
So let’s start now. October 2nd.
I weigh about 184 pounds last time I checked. I eat roughly 1500 cal a day. Lets get me down to 160 for Paris. Is that doable? But lets begin with 6 pounds for October. I’m driven and I’m going to do it.
So I did my workout today and it went pretty well, easy to get back into and I did the harder versions of all the moves. Starting at level 1 ripped in 30. No turning back!
I know that I fell off the wagon majorly twice in this whole summer journey. During the second level of the Shred when I didn’t do it for over a week because I was sick and then immobilized with laziness after recovery. Then during the second level of Ripped when I had a wedding I had to travel for and didn’t do it for a week. What is it with the level 2’s? Man! But I am proud that at least I got back on, cause usually I would’ve been well, try again next year! or something equally foul. In any case, even though the scale isn’t saying much at all, I feel stronger, better, faster and any other kanye west adverbs you may have. This was me today, and I feel like even though my hereditary tummy protrusion is still, protruding, it looks sorta better, you know?
Daily Inspiration: Seeing my own progress, but more so, feeling it.
I never actually got a chance to record this day until now, because I ran from the workout to the shower to downtown for a birthday party, but it was pretty good, aside from when I PULLED some godforsaken muscle from my back to my foot and it gave me a bit of a hop for the rest of the day. It feels much better now, however.
Daily Inspiration: Getting my life in order with school and work and my friends and everything, fitness can often take the back seat, but not this time!
Now we’re moving! Did my workout by 1pm and even though I woke up feeling like a truck ran over me, I gave it a good effort. I can do half the hard moves and half on easy, but I’m getting there. Change is a process not a destination, and I am definietly feeling a change!
Daily Inspiration: I have mild scoliosis. My weight has always been a problem for me, and doesn’t make this often crippling condition any better. Since I started working out, I’ve noticed less back pain. Its incredible, especially since I have had perpetual pain under my right shoulder blade where the curvature is for the last couple of years. No amount of stretching fixes it. I feel like an old person constantly. So I am praying that the weight loss will make this a bit more bearable.
First day of level 3 gave me a good ass-whooping. But I have an exercise high right now and I’m feeling like I could kick some ass. Can’t wait to get better at it with every day!
Daily Inspiration: Losing it with Jillian episode 5. I feel like crying through this whole thing. The way Elijah feels, like he can’t do anything about it really resonates. And I replayed the part where he goes, “i’m not very light-footed” and jillian tells him these thoughts that you’re too heavy, too slow, to big are not true. I feel like she is talking to me when she says this. It was very empowering, seeing as I believe myself to be very heavy footed, gangly and all around kind of lumbering. but perception is in the eye of the beholder I guess. Jillian kills me, I love her.
Just got back from walking all around Stratford today with my mom. I just finished my workout (2am!) and I have work in too few hours! I honestly have to say that I missed my workout yesterday because I felt horrible, I know, excuse, but I pushed myself harder today and got a good workout walking around for a few hours. I have decided to go to the gym regularly in university, not just classes, but like, in public. Working out in public, my eternal fear. Especially since, from what I’ve glimpsed through the windows of the weight room, those who workout in Guelph (especially the guys) are virtual demi-gods. Where do the people that actually need to exercise workout, I wonder? Do we shun ourselves to the closed comfort of a obscurely-located room in the gym complex to puff out our beginner pilates? (true story, my pilates class was in the basement, took me an hour to find, and my cycling class was on the third floor near a janitor’s closet. perfectly far away enough from the judging eyes not-so-lesser gym rats). Maybe I care too much about what people think. But, at least I’m making an effort. My mom told me today, confidence isn’t deciding to do something, its actually doing it. So I’m going to actually do it this time. Let them watch, let them judge, eventually I’ll claw my way up to those ranks. And I’ll be the last one laughing.
Daily Inspiration: I’ve been watching Losing It with Jillian Michaels. There’s an incredibly inspirational show if you need one. I love her beyond words.
Another day, and another step towards my goal of 10 pounds in 2 1/2 weeks! I am watching Losing It With Jillian on YouTube and its very, very inspirational. Also, I find I get bloated at the drop of a hat, even though I hardly eat salty foods or bread. I am going to try going gluten-free where I can and see if that helps!
Daily Inspiration: Making healthy eating choices when University starts back up in a few weeks!
First workout in over a week. I move in on August 18th to my university dorm. That’s in about 20 days. I have 20 days left and I can finish this Ripped workout! Deadline established. Goal will be achieved. Absolutely. 10 pounds before school starts, lets do it!
Daily Inspiration: Getting back on that horse, and being ready for university, mind, body and soul.